Beauty Ninja

I have done a lot of pretty kooky things since I moved to Hollywood in an effort to avoid myself. Not drugs, or drinking, like many fall down to... that's just not my speed. But I have let my life become cluttered with a lot of unnecessary things. Physical clutter that diminishes the enjoyment of my personal space. Clutter that de-energizes me and distracts my focus from what I really need to be doing. Mental clutter - constantly wondering what I need to be doing rather than just doing SOMETHING dammit. Asking unqualified people the way when I just need to pick up the dang machete and start hacking my own way through the jungle. And emotional clutter - clinging to impossible situations and people that blatantly don't care about me- but I chose blinders and daydreaming over and over again.... all because it helps me avoid what is going on with me right now. I can't believe I let myself get so cocooned in my own neurosis that I wake up here, very much removed from reality.

It's not all my fault. Life is challenging... you gotta learn to live it well, or at least I do. And some people can present you with obstacles... they can try to use you or lie to you... their own smallness of character can negatively impact you. And then some help you dig your own grave and are simply careless or unintentionally moronic and cruel... but it really does come down to ME, my fault, for giving any of them the time of day or any mental real estate chez Beauty Ninja. I'm too young and too ambitious and too smart to keep this cycle going even ONE MINUTE longer. It's over. Like Scorsese said "Cinema is a matter of what's in the frame and what's out".

Well, so is my life.... and the people, ideas, and habits that create it. And its spring cleaning motherfuckas!!